It’s no secret that I’m anxious to get our family growing. Tim knows this better than anyone, God love him. I have loved every single minute of these last 17 months (+ 1 day) of wedded bliss. I really have. We have a great marriage. I often say it’s the best earthly gift God’s ever given me. And I mean that.
But oh to be a mommy. To have a child of our own. To be expecting a new little one. I cannot wait for those days. And I’m sure I look at parenting through rose colored classes, for I know we honestly have no idea what it’s like to be up at all hours of the day and night, to be cried on, pooed on, vomited on, and loved on all in one day.
Still, I think we’ll be excellent parents. No, I know we’ll be great parents. Even though I am a klutz more often than not. Even though I am often not the sharpest tool in the shed. Even though I am scared of my shadow when Tim’s not at home with me. I know we’ll be great parents. Cause Tim? He picks me up when I fall. He keeps me from tripping over my own two feet. He answers my random questions about anything and everything. He makes sure I’m home safely and locked in tightly with the dogs beside me whenever he is away.
See, I don’t think it’s ironic that I absolutely love being the woman of the house. I enjoy grocery shopping, cooking, and even cleaning up the kitchen after a meal. I love being responsible for keeping our clothes clean, folded and put away. I believe that God put that love for homemaking in my heart for a specific purpose. I know it helps me to be the best wife I can be to my husband. But I also hope it’s going to help me be an incredible mom one day, too.
I can’t wait to sing lullabies to my precious little one in my terribly off key singing voice. I can’t wait to read book after book to my child. Goodnight Moon for the 12th time today? You betcha! Oh to be cooking supper while I watch Tim play ball with our child in the yard. To overhear the little pitter patter of feet and a big ole’ “Daddy’s Home!” from our children.
Yep, I just went from dreaming about our firstborn to dreaming about a house full of children.
Don’t interrupt me. I’m daydreamin’ here!
Tim, if you’re still reading, take a deep breath, honey. No need to freak out! Yet!!
While I readily acknowledge this incredible desire to be a mom, I also know that God’s timing is perfect. This, too, shall come. If His Will be done.
I also am struck with just how much God loves us. Can you even begin to imagine the depths of his love for us? If I cannot wait to read a book to my child, to sing songs with my child, can you imagine how happy it must make God when we read His Book? Sing Hymns of Praise to Him?
What about how His heart must swell when he hears the pitter patter of our feet, running to our Abba Father?
In the meantime, I’m loving this marriage thing. Tim’s definitely God’s best for me. And I continue to pray that God will grow us as husband and wife, preparing us better and better each day to be parents. Should He see fit. And, while we anticipate parenting, I pray this every day for our future children: “The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quite you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” ~ Zephaniah 3:17
15 comments:
It was cool to read your daydreaming...to remember the daydreams that I once had before we had children.
I will never forget the moment my 1st child was born - I had always envisioned a brunette child...she was platinum blond at birth! That was only the beginning of God showing me how His ways were different (and better) than my own...I've learned so much through parenting!!
No doubt you and Tim will make amazing parents! I pray God will grant you the desires of your heart. That He would continue to rejoice over your marriage and family with singing!!
Keep dreaming girl! God has good plans for you!
You will make a wonderful mommy and Tim a wonderful daddy!
What a great post! You are going to make a wonderful Mommy one day. I never had time to daydream, because we were surprised with me becoming pregnant 3 months after we were married. You will look back and be glad you had this alone time with your Hubby, I bet.
I agree with you on our Abba Father. We should all remind ourselves how much He loves us, just like we love our own kids, only infinitely more!
I loved reading about your hopes and dreams about becoming a mommy. The hearts that God gives to us that make us long for and desire such things is so beautiful. REading your own hopes here reminded me much of myself. My own dream is coming true in about two and a half weeks - I still can't believe it.
I look forward to reading when that day comes for you and watching your hopes and dreams about parenting and being a mommy are a reality.
Keep dreaming girl. Your dreams are beautiful! (o:
Wow! I remember daydreaming about becoming a mommy also. And I love that verse from Zephaniah. What a beautiful picture to imagine that the Lord rejoices over us with singing. Thanks so much for entrusting us with your hopes and dreams. I love your heart for God, for your husband, for your responsibilities. I am praying for you today, girl. God is good!
B~Love the verse, its one of my favorite songs on the first Glory Revealed Album. And if you dont have it get that one and the second that came out this week! Great post bud!! xoxo from may-retta.
I loved reading this post. I agree that you and Tim will make wonderful Godly parents. Enjoy this time though - it is never going to be the same. I wouldn't give up the 6 years Adam and I had together for just ourselves for anything. Motherhood is amazing and truly a blessing but once you are a mommy, you are always a mommy. Be the best wife you can right now and enjoy all the moments you and Tim have together as a couple. You are a great couple!
It was precious to read your daydream! Thanks for sharing! I have no doubt that you will be a fabulous mommy. I promise you it will be so much better, harder, different, and worth it than you'll ever imagine! : )
And the crying, pooing, vomiting, and loving don't just happen in the same day...they often happen in the same minute!!!!
I just wanted to stop by and say hello. I know it's been a while and I've been a bad bloggin friend!
I love this post, though and wanted to tell you that I absolutely adore being a mommy. Yes, there are some trying times, but being pregnant and having Preston and watching him grow have compared to nothing else that has ever happened in my life. It brought me closer to God, changed my outlook on the world, and showed me a love beyond anything I ever imagined. You will be a great mom and I will pray that God will bless you and Tim with a child for you to adore.
I'll be back by soon! :) God Bless!
I think you will be a great mom and I also agree that God's timing is the best. I think he uses every moment of now to prepare you for the next chapter. I'm actually pretty nervous right now about Mark and I becoming parents, but I'm thankful that God knows best even about my insecurities!!! I love that verse too. His love is so amazing!
I think we're soul sisters, girl. I have the same dreams (although since we're not married yet, mine are still more in the distance than yours!)
I love the parallels of our Abba Father and parenthood. Beautifully written...
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I believe that you and your husband are being prepared by God to welcome many children into your family. You will be wonderful parents!
Keep dreaming girl! God is a dream maker!
LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh what I would give to even be married without children!!!!
I CANT WAIT to be a wifey, and a mommy :D
Thank you for sharing your daydreams with us :)
loving your daydreams...you are going to be an amazing mommy!!!
Anytime you want to babysit, just let me know!
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